you feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. for having wanted to be wanted.
“it hurts to let go. sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. you feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. for having wanted to be wanted. it confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t coma back. you’re left so alone that you can’t explain. damn, there’s nothing like that, is there? i’ve been there and you have too. you’re nodding your head.”
– henry rollins
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“that’s you, drops of water and you’re on top of the mountain of success. but one day you start sliding down the mountain and you think wait a minute; i’m a mountain top water drop. i don’t belong in this valley, this river, this low dark ocean with all these drops of water. then one day it gets hot and you slowly evaporate into air, way up, higher than any mountain top, all the way to the heavens. then you understand that it was at your lowest that you were closest to God. life’s a journey that goes round and round and the end is closest to the beginning. so if it’s change you need, relish the journey.”
– edward james olmos
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“that feeling of loving someone so dearly to the point it feels like my heart is being crushed and the loneliness fills it up my entirety, making me numb, bringing me back to that someone very dear to me in my lost memories…”
– mikan sakura, gakuen alice
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“i have to believe in a world outside my own mind. i have to believe that my actions still have meaning, even if i can’t remember them. i have to believe that when my eyes are closed, the world’s still there. do i believe the world’s still there? is it still out there?… yeah. we all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are. i’m no different.”
– leonard shelby, from memento.
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“it makes me sick, the way sadness is addicting. the way i can’t stop. sadness is familiar. it’s comfortable and it’s easy in a sense that it comes naturally to me. but everything else about it is hard. the way my body aches with self-hatred. the way my mind spins and spins with hopeless thoughts. the way it poisons everything i do, every relationship i have. yet it’s addicting, because i know sadness, and i know it very well. and there’s a sort of comfort in that, like being home after a trip or sleeping in your own bed after being away. there’s just a sense that this is where i belong. this is how it’s supposed to be.”
– marianna paige
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“what i mean is, even a dumb ass like me can think everything’s pointless. why do i get up and eat? it all ends up shit anyway. why am i going to school and studying? even if i happen to succeed i’m going to die anyway. you wear nice clothes, you seek respect, you make a lot of money, but what’s the point? it’s all pointless. but… but, you see, we still have emotions like joy and happiness, right? they may not amount to much but they fill up our emptiness.”
– koushun takami, battle royale
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“people think dreams aren’t real just because they aren’t made of matter, of particles. dreams are real. but they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories and puns and lost hopes.”
– john dee, from Preludes and Nocturnes.
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