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i didn’t see that she was standing, right in front of me, i never noticed she’d been walking, right here beside me

nampaknya saya jatuh hati. err, saya belum berani bilang saya jatuh cinta, karena saya juga masih tidak yakin dengan apa yang saya rasakan sekarang ini. tidak, perasaan ini tidak sama dengan si gadis impian, yang saya tahu itu cuma sebatas impian apapun yang saya lakukan dan apapun yang terjadi. saya tidak tahu kenapa saya bisa merasa begini, karena sejujurnya wanita ini pun bukanlah wanita yang selama ini saya pikir jodoh saya, terutama jika kita bicara wanita idaman yang ideal versi saya. but heyy, terkadang kita harus menelan ludah sendiri bukan? justru dengan wanita yang selama ini saya pikir saya tidak akan jatuh hati, saya malah tersandung dan jatuh semakin dalam…

i’ve been searching every stone, taken every path unknown, followed where the wind has blown, i’ve been so blind

i’ve been climbing every tree, after swimming the darkest sea, nothing did appear to me, i’ve been so blind

i didn’t see that she was standing, right in front of me, i never noticed she’d been walking, right here beside me

i’ve been so blind

tapi beranikah saya membuka mata, mengakui kalau saya benar-benar jatuh hati, dan melangkah lebih jauh? beranikan saya menghadapi kenyataan atau hanya berdiri disini di balik kenyamanan yang bernama “pertemanan” dan hanya bisa memandang saja tanpa berani terlibat lebih jauh dengan segala konsekuensinya?

tentu saja saya takut. bukan takut akan penolakan (eh, itu juga masih kok) tapi takut dengan konsekuensi untuk bersama saya yang “sakit” ini. apakah seorang egois-bajingan-bipolar seperti saya bisa meyakinkan kalau saya tidak akan merenggut impian dan kebahagiaannya?

dimana kewarasan dan akal sehat saya di saat-saat seperti ini?

what should i do, what should i do, what should i do… just give me your hands. lets find a light. leave all this behind. and forget the world…

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i cant decide if i want to forget or move on

sometimes, i can’t help but think that there will never be anyone as perfect for me as you. you were too big of a fool to have known that… i cant decide if i want to forget you & move on, or keep holding on. it’s not really my choice anyway, but even if it was, i couldn’t decide. and i don’t know if i want to see you or not. i don’t know what’s worse; not seeing you and missing you, or seeing you and just feeling worse for not being able to be close to you…

Now Playing: Metronomy – The English Riviera – Trouble


out of reach…

you’re always just out of reach. i wonder why my heart won’t let go of something so impossible?

Now Playing: Starfucker – Reptillians – Bury Us Alive


being so close, yet so far, it’s unbearable…

my eyes search for you, always. the only problem is, once i find you, i can’t do anything. i’m paralyzed. being so close, yet so far, it’s unbearable…

Now Playing: Ted & Francis – Erlend


we never dated, but we were amazing friends, right?

it’s been years since i’m knocking on your door, and still i can knock some more… we never dated, but we were amazing friends, right? now, we’re miles apart. although i think i’m quite over you…

Now Playing: Antonio Carlos Jobim – A Retrospective of Antonio Carlos Jobim – Lamento


would you?

tell me, if we had met earlier in life, would we have been couples?

Now Playing: Beachwood Sparks – Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World – By Your Side

 


all of my old haunts are now all haunting me…

seberapapun kuatnya saya berusaha melupakannya dan berusaha tidak peduli, saya tahu jauh di dalam hati… saya menangis…

all you do is remind me…

Now Playing: St. Vincent – Actor – laughing with a mouth of blood