it’s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same.

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love makes you so vulnerable. it opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

you build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…

you give them a piece of you. they didn’t ask for it. they did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore.

love takes hostages. it gets inside you. it eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ or ‘how perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

it hurts. not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. it’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

siapa sangka, quote dari graphic novel favorit saya yang berjudul “the sandman” ini mengena lagi buat saya. semua tembok pertahanan yang saya buat, runtuh begitu saja hanya karena saya membukakan pintu untuk satu orang saja. dan kalimat sederhana seperti itu yang sekarang menghujam tepat ke hati saya dan masih belum akan hilang setidaknya untuk waktu dekat ini.

it’s the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time.
it’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started.
when you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away.
it’s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same.
no matter how much you love someone, they just can’t love you back in the same way.
loving someone who can’t love you back is way lonelier than being alone.

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